Life has a way of just pulling everything from right under you. Well it isn’t always life but rather decisions taken which their consequences have a result that tends to pull said rug from right under you.
Its moments like those that cause you to truly reflect on life, love, hope and grace.
It’s really hard not to go to a dark place. I am an intense person. I love with all my being. If I’m upset, you will know. If I am sad, my every strength and tear is involved. Have you ever been so upset that you didn’t think of eating for 3 days? No rumbling or hunger could be heard or felt because every part of your being was being consumed by such an intense situation?
My family has been going through some pretty intense times lately. I won’t give you the deep details but I also won’t pretend that we’re perfect. Life isn’t perfect, it’s raw, ugly, painful, scary, disappointing and so much more. Through this trial I have also come to realize that life also has hope, love, forgiveness, understanding, perseverance and much more.
I know who I am, although this situation has made me reflect more than ever. This storm is one I never expected but you know what? My Father calms the stormy seas and walks on water. Who can i fear? I won’t let this ugly situation take my family. I have actually been a little surprised with myself and how I have dealt with this chapter in life. Call it age, call it motherhood, call it having experienced deep tragedy in the past, call it maturity or call it true love. Whatever it is, I like it. I have been raised to be firm in my faith and to not give up. I owe my parents big time for they are the ones that planted these incredible seeds within me. They led by example. I mean, a marriage of 33 years doesn’t happen without some hurdles along the way, right?
So here we are! At the intersection of tragedy and blessing. Blessing? Yup! Silver lining here, guys! My family has been shocked out of a stale, cookie-cutter predictable life. Yeah we could have chosen differently and the outcome could have been different as well. Yet here we are, loving, forgiving, living! So here’s to creating a genuine family and relationship.
I will continue to work on my marriage on a daily basis. Extend grace and love just as it was given to me. I continue to have the most important job in the world, I get to mold and shape 2 little minds. I vow to teach my girls to be self confident and to be sure of who they are. I will teach them not to depend on a certain type of attention but rather know how incredible and intelligent they are and choose to be known for that. To spread their wings and pursue what their heart calls them to do, all while keeping their eyes on Jesus. Last but not least, to “kill em’ with kindness”!
We did a photoshoot this past weekend to celebrate Abby’s 6 months. These are probably the most real pictures that we’ve had in a while. It’s a new chapter now. Nice try life, as a long time friend recently told me “You look like you’re really nice, but I’ve known you to well to mess with you, Susana”.
Meet my family once again, we are imperfect, we are a mess but we also love each other and you can’t steal our love.
Thank you to our amazing friend for catching these special moments. Photography by Osose Oboh Photography